Monsters to Flowers - the Turn of the Tide
I hesitate to write about this because I don’t want to jinx the progress I have had. The last few treatments in particular have felt like moving in the right direction. And this last session which was #30 seems like it was turning a corner to something better. I remember session 3 when I sobbed uncontrollably and it only got worse after the 2 hours were up and Caityln reassured me that it was only session 3 and I needed to be patient. My psychiatrist said that I am not going to cure 40 years of depression in a few treatments. It wasn’t until I could give myself the grace to just let go and let the medicine do whatever it was going to do that I started to feel better but even through that it was very up and down and I never really felt good after a treatment. The last few weeks in particular I have started to see changes in my ability to see a future. It is not a clear future and I don’t have any solid plans but I felt hopeful and posit...