1 Year In: The Bad Trip
#38. I have not had treatment in over a month due to work commitments both on my part and Jym’s and the holiday (when the clinic is closed). I have had an extremely difficult last 2 months being away from home with work and some added work stresses and I was probably not in a place to physically test my mental fortitude in my already fragile remission but here we are. Although I felt the slipping early on, I hoped it was possibly due to my nervousness about the whole month with no treatment thing combined with a very stressful work situation and that I would level out emotionally but the last 2 weeks in particular have been a struggle and one that was far deeper than I imagined. To add to my constant battle to keep my head above water, one of the PGA TOUR players at the tournament I was doing, took his own life. (the last entry) It was a sobering reminder of how quickly and easily one can slip into the darkness. I have to be constantly vigilant....