Bad wiring

My AC has been acting up for a while.  I called the repair guy a few months ago but he said that it could be a 1000 things and of course it did not do it when he was here.  Since my unit is not quite 8 years old he said it might be smarter to just replace the whole unit rather than start randomly replacing things.  This made me sick to my stomach since the unit is a Trane that I have well maintained so I should not have to replace it yet.  Since the only issue I was having was that the fan would run continuously I decided to just wait it out and see. 

We had a patch of decent weather and I had the windows open and as afternoon hit I realized that although the unit was turned off the fan turned itself on (which should not happen when the unit is off).  It ran all night solid and would nit shut off.  It also pulls the hot air from my eaves down into the house making the cool air blowing thru my house useless.  Eventually we decided to trip the breaker and turn the power off to the whole unit. 

I begrudgingly called the repair guy but this time I did some online research and found out that one of the problems could be the thermostat which I could easily replace and would still be good even if in the end I had to replace the whole unit so I asked them to install a new thermostat.  When the repair man arrived I told him the issues I was having and he offered to check out the rest of the unit while he was there in case it was something obvious. 

He came back in about a half hour later after tearing apart the outside unit and explained that it appeared someone had hit the cable pack with a weed wacker (my husband) and the outer coating was gone exposing all the wires to the elements and although none of the wires were completely severed, several of them were nicked enough that he believed they were sending bad signals to the unit, telling it to turn on when it shouldn’t.  He felt that new wiring and a solid cover over them should fix the problem and avoid it happening again.

As he was fixing that and installing my thermostat (I went with the 2 way punch to hopefully fix what was wrong one way or the other) I started to contemplate how my life right now is a lot like that wiring.  The wiring in my brain is not yet completely severed but it is damaged, the connections are not being made and they are sending false messages dissolving any functionality I had.  Unless I can fix this mangled pack of wires and get a good solid coating over them my life will continue to degrade.  I truly hope that Ketamine will be the repair my brain so desperately needs and that I can reconnect and strengthen those connections and maybe even build new ones.  It is my hope, for the best, but I am also aware that this might not work for me and then I don’t know where to go next.  It is a very real fear for me.  

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