A week off

I took a week off from the treatments because of Jym’s second surgery.  We have run out of days for him to take off so something had to be sacrificed.  That is one very difficult part of this.  I wish there was a clinic near my home so I could easily get to treatments.  It has been a huge commitment of time and gas.

I did, however, have both a therapy apt and a psychiatrist apt to discuss my plans moving forward.  I have decided to table the lozenges not because I don’t want to try them but because the cost of surgeries, car repairs and a new AC unit has seen an output of almost $25,000 over the last month so it has been quite a hit.  I just simply cannot continue to bleed money especially over things that are an experiment for me.  Maybe in the future I will be able to revisit that.

I have to say that both appointments went well for me. First I was able to discuss my situation with menopause and my therapist actually recommended HRT which is my next option and said it has made a world of difference for her so I felt really positive about that. 

Then I had the psychiatrist appointment which went really well.  I love Dr Sedney.  If I had her for my psychiatrist years ago I might not have such a stigma attached to psychiatrists and maybe I would be healthier mentally by now.  I don’t know.  I am just thankful to have her now.  She listened to my needs and was positive about the place I was in and the path I chose to move forward.  I was in a good place mentally and told her about my blog and how I have been writing about the experience with Spravato, the good and the bad.  In that vein, she said that it was impressive that I was able to share my journey and help others with my own struggles.  She suggested a Facebook group that might help me to connect with other people in my situation so I joined that right away and it has really been great for me.  I can relate to others struggles, learn things and also offer support to other people in the same place I am. 

I am learning that there are so many different ways to receive this therapy and that I am very lucky to have found the clinic I have. Some people are getting Spravato in a hospital setting which is loud and distracting and not the spa like atmosphere I have.  A lot of places do not provide sleep masks, headsets/playlists, a relaxing environment.  Some don’t even provide anti-nausea options.  I am very lucky for the situation I have.  I am grateful for that. 

I am also able to have conversations with people who are just starting out and offer them advice and guidance.  Or just connect with other people who are going thru what I am.  I was shocked to hear that some people were on as much as session 36 before they saw results.  I feel doubly blessed to have had some positive results here at 13.  I also think this connection will help me with the future I choose for this treatment.  

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